He came back...
when i'm starting at step 2...
Wat the...
星期一, 3月 30, 2009
Detox Step 2
I think i'm slowly getting the knack for doing the step 1 la... it's not a sure stable kind of footing, but.. I'm getting to it...
So here's the next step:
Don't think of him when you wake.
Don't think of him before you sleep.
Don't think of him on weekends.
Don't think of him when you dream.
And if you really have to think of him, Think horrible thoughts about him... how he digs his nose and flicks that disgusting piece of **** with his fingers... how he said nasty things about your bestest frens... how he kicked that poor little kitten with his dirty shoes...
So here's the next step:
Don't think of him when you wake.
Don't think of him before you sleep.
Don't think of him on weekends.
Don't think of him when you dream.
And if you really have to think of him, Think horrible thoughts about him... how he digs his nose and flicks that disgusting piece of **** with his fingers... how he said nasty things about your bestest frens... how he kicked that poor little kitten with his dirty shoes...
星期六, 3月 28, 2009
Detox Time Step 1
The time for detoxing is here. And since I have regained abit of my sanity, I know it's time to start cleansing myself of the impurities, before I lose all hope.
1st step:
Stop visiting his Blog, Facebook profile & stop waiting for him online.
1st step:
Stop visiting his Blog, Facebook profile & stop waiting for him online.
星期五, 3月 27, 2009
You Know You're Seriously Screwed when...
... When all you do in front of your computer is to check on all his facebook updates.
... When all you do in front of your computer is to check on all his blog updates.
... When all you do in front of your computer is to check on all his MSN Status updates.
... When all you do all day is to recall on what he said or did.
... When you get emo over the fact that he didn't call or msg.
... When all you do in front of your computer is to check on all his blog updates.
... When all you do in front of your computer is to check on all his MSN Status updates.
... When all you do all day is to recall on what he said or did.
... When you get emo over the fact that he didn't call or msg.
星期三, 3月 25, 2009
Must we play mind games?
I had wished that I'm less emotional and more rational.
More adept at playing mind games than less at doing silly things.
I can say I don't care. I can say I don't give a sh*t.
But can I not feel a thing?
The answer unfortunately is no.
But whatever it is, I have survived worst, and will continue to survive the new battles which I encounter along the way...
May God lead me safely through the hazy clouds that confuse, and ultimately to bright sunny paradise. . . I pray for my family and friends as well...
Hope exists in tears of sorrow.
After the rain comes the rainbow.
More adept at playing mind games than less at doing silly things.
I can say I don't care. I can say I don't give a sh*t.
But can I not feel a thing?
The answer unfortunately is no.
But whatever it is, I have survived worst, and will continue to survive the new battles which I encounter along the way...
May God lead me safely through the hazy clouds that confuse, and ultimately to bright sunny paradise. . . I pray for my family and friends as well...
Hope exists in tears of sorrow.
After the rain comes the rainbow.
星期二, 3月 24, 2009
星期一, 3月 23, 2009
星期四, 3月 19, 2009
Relationships
It's almost 1 year since my last relationship, and although there's that biological clock and mom's clock ticking away, nagging me, I sometimes feel a sense of relief that not being in a relationship saves me alot of problems and heartaches.
1 gf getting married after a huge storm of drama rama...
1 gf avoided getting married by breaking up with her long-term BF...
1 gf complains of lack of alone time with her BF, when he thinks it's more than enuf time spent together once per week...
1 gf walking a very thin line, a tug of war with her job and BF on each side...
1 gf broke up with BF B who happens to be the nicest guy, only to keep thinking of an ex...
1 gf thinking of breaking up with BF of 3 mths cos something about the relationship is not right to her, and she dunno how to approach the subject...
There are more... But I'm tired...
Relationships kinda give me a bloody headache.
1 gf getting married after a huge storm of drama rama...
1 gf avoided getting married by breaking up with her long-term BF...
1 gf complains of lack of alone time with her BF, when he thinks it's more than enuf time spent together once per week...
1 gf walking a very thin line, a tug of war with her job and BF on each side...
1 gf broke up with BF B who happens to be the nicest guy, only to keep thinking of an ex...
1 gf thinking of breaking up with BF of 3 mths cos something about the relationship is not right to her, and she dunno how to approach the subject...
There are more... But I'm tired...
Relationships kinda give me a bloody headache.
星期一, 3月 16, 2009
Things happen for a reason...
Yeah... I truly believe so...
Like how J Milk got sidetracked, and her beau got distracted, and how they broke up over A commitment phobic, then realised that they are just meant for each other ultimately, and now, GETTING MARRIED!!
WOW... I'm freakin' happy for the both of them... though apparently we Milks had a little misunderstanding with J Milk's beau...
Yesh. BTW, I am going to be one of the 8 Jiemeis... which marks my 3rd time... ARGH...
Does that mean I will not be be able to get married, if one thinks superstitiously??
Well, things do happen for a reason. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Like how J Milk got sidetracked, and her beau got distracted, and how they broke up over A commitment phobic, then realised that they are just meant for each other ultimately, and now, GETTING MARRIED!!
WOW... I'm freakin' happy for the both of them... though apparently we Milks had a little misunderstanding with J Milk's beau...
Yesh. BTW, I am going to be one of the 8 Jiemeis... which marks my 3rd time... ARGH...
Does that mean I will not be be able to get married, if one thinks superstitiously??
Well, things do happen for a reason. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
星期一, 3月 09, 2009
The SSS Pub, the Shareholders, and Our Possible Customers...
The SSS and I had a discussion on how we wanted to open our own SSS Pub in 5 years time, whereby people who has simshis will become our customers, which is practically everyone (except beautiful and rich pple according to Gigi)...
The Shareholders, of cos the SSS gals... To deviate abit, Sisi has now join the ranks of the SSS and no longer part of the sub-branch A-SSS... Welcome Sisi!!
Apparently, Gigi is going to be the Manager who'll be in charge of the artiste and performers, and J&R will be contracted to the SSS Pub then... so... ya... G, pls maintain professionalism... No squealing ya!!
The Customers, we will have different "talents" attracting the different groups... Like Mdm Vivi will be exuding her womanly charms on the rich men... ( I don't want to call them U*cle, lest Vivi thinks I mean harm... haha..)
Anyways, we'll see how it goes... 5 years... Hmmm....
The Shareholders, of cos the SSS gals... To deviate abit, Sisi has now join the ranks of the SSS and no longer part of the sub-branch A-SSS... Welcome Sisi!!
Apparently, Gigi is going to be the Manager who'll be in charge of the artiste and performers, and J&R will be contracted to the SSS Pub then... so... ya... G, pls maintain professionalism... No squealing ya!!
The Customers, we will have different "talents" attracting the different groups... Like Mdm Vivi will be exuding her womanly charms on the rich men... ( I don't want to call them U*cle, lest Vivi thinks I mean harm... haha..)
Anyways, we'll see how it goes... 5 years... Hmmm....
星期一, 1月 19, 2009
Horrible Weekend
I was so looking forward to the weekend Bintan trip a few days again.
Just had to pay for ferry 60 bucks, as the deal comes with the room paid for.
Sweet.
Then I had to fall sick on Thurs.
Was sniffling abit since Monday morning. then Thurs came, and I begin sniffling alot, sneezed my head off a couple of times, and by lunch I was declared contagiously sick by my colleagues, with my boss then ordering me to go home.
Sure, I was happy to rest, and rest I did.
Even on Friday in fact, since I decided to be flu-free before I go back to my office...
Went to see the Doc, got that MC and rested again.
Until that chilly feeling came in the afternoon, I couldn't help but switched on my laptop to check my email counts, after my sister finished selecting her schools for her O' levels
...
...
...
...
Over 300+....
Drats...
Was supposed to take the 8pm ferry that night, so I started feverishly clearing my emails ...
The abit of the flu returned... I gave up and decided to call it quits, telling my cousin that I couldn't make it... then somehow, after speaking with her, I felt abit guilty for doing this to her so last min and also wanting to have abit of the fun which I had promised myself all week long, that I finally gathered my barangs and made the rush to the Tanah Merah Terminal leaving the house at approximately 6.45pm.
JAM.
Finally after bus-train-cab, I managed to reach there at about 8pm, with my cousin calling umpteen times during the cab ride asking me to hurry...
CRAP.
Ferry sailed off without me.
Dejected and super emo, I left the terminal. A line of taxis queued waiting for passengers, and the uncles all stared at me imploringly as I walked by their vehicles. Being super pissed and super upset about the waste of a good 80 bucks (ferry and expensive cab ride), I held my head high (imagined it), and walked away from all those irritating eyes.
The lone bus stop in the middle of nowhere stated that there was only 1 bus available. And there were a couple, an uncle, a few malays scattered around the tiny bus stand. So I waited.
I teared abit, being that super emo state, and that uncle beside me blatantly stared. Trying to ignore and act like nothing was amiss to the other nearby waiters (in this case, people who were waiting), I took out my DS and started poking the screen with the phoenix wright game.
Bloody... I nearly completed the game by the time the stupid bus arrived!! Damn that stupid bus stop with that 1 stupid bus with that stupid frequency time of 45 mins!!!!
So after that stupid long wait, I took that super long train ride home, then changed to bus. took me like 2 hrs cos in the middle of the ride, I stupidly alighted at the wrong stop due to the grogginess caused by the medicine... ARGH... Yes. I'm blaming it on the medicine...
The next day, since I was in Singapore, I decided that I should go for the jap class which i had originally told my teacher that I won't be attending...
I forgot that it was a placement class and boy was I unprepared for the Mizusaki World (Mizusaki Sensei states that in her world, everything is possible and logical thinking would not apply, thus we have to listen to her lesson thoroughly, since she would suddenly pop a question in your face and expect her kind of answer) , which is horrifying for someone whose Jap is in a smattering mess.
And Yep. I didn't make it to Level 2. It's like Super Mario meeting the Level 2 King without his mushroom or flower or feather... Back to Level 1.
After that, I didn't have anything else to look forward to, since G fell sick, and I started feeling emo again, didn't want to unleash it on unsuspecting frens or foes or passerbys, that I decided to go home and face the emails...
The email thingy lasted for the rest of the weekend which I also injected some "How I Met your Mother" into it, making it bearable, and also longer since I always get addictedly distracted by the sitcom...
Here's hoping that I get a better, more enjoyable weekend this coming Fri to Tue. Chinese New Year can't go too wrong, right?
Right??
Just had to pay for ferry 60 bucks, as the deal comes with the room paid for.
Sweet.
Then I had to fall sick on Thurs.
Was sniffling abit since Monday morning. then Thurs came, and I begin sniffling alot, sneezed my head off a couple of times, and by lunch I was declared contagiously sick by my colleagues, with my boss then ordering me to go home.
Sure, I was happy to rest, and rest I did.
Even on Friday in fact, since I decided to be flu-free before I go back to my office...
Went to see the Doc, got that MC and rested again.
Until that chilly feeling came in the afternoon, I couldn't help but switched on my laptop to check my email counts, after my sister finished selecting her schools for her O' levels
...
...
...
...
Over 300+....
Drats...
Was supposed to take the 8pm ferry that night, so I started feverishly clearing my emails ...
The abit of the flu returned... I gave up and decided to call it quits, telling my cousin that I couldn't make it... then somehow, after speaking with her, I felt abit guilty for doing this to her so last min and also wanting to have abit of the fun which I had promised myself all week long, that I finally gathered my barangs and made the rush to the Tanah Merah Terminal leaving the house at approximately 6.45pm.
JAM.
Finally after bus-train-cab, I managed to reach there at about 8pm, with my cousin calling umpteen times during the cab ride asking me to hurry...
CRAP.
Ferry sailed off without me.
Dejected and super emo, I left the terminal. A line of taxis queued waiting for passengers, and the uncles all stared at me imploringly as I walked by their vehicles. Being super pissed and super upset about the waste of a good 80 bucks (ferry and expensive cab ride), I held my head high (imagined it), and walked away from all those irritating eyes.
The lone bus stop in the middle of nowhere stated that there was only 1 bus available. And there were a couple, an uncle, a few malays scattered around the tiny bus stand. So I waited.
I teared abit, being that super emo state, and that uncle beside me blatantly stared. Trying to ignore and act like nothing was amiss to the other nearby waiters (in this case, people who were waiting), I took out my DS and started poking the screen with the phoenix wright game.
Bloody... I nearly completed the game by the time the stupid bus arrived!! Damn that stupid bus stop with that 1 stupid bus with that stupid frequency time of 45 mins!!!!
So after that stupid long wait, I took that super long train ride home, then changed to bus. took me like 2 hrs cos in the middle of the ride, I stupidly alighted at the wrong stop due to the grogginess caused by the medicine... ARGH... Yes. I'm blaming it on the medicine...
The next day, since I was in Singapore, I decided that I should go for the jap class which i had originally told my teacher that I won't be attending...
I forgot that it was a placement class and boy was I unprepared for the Mizusaki World (Mizusaki Sensei states that in her world, everything is possible and logical thinking would not apply, thus we have to listen to her lesson thoroughly, since she would suddenly pop a question in your face and expect her kind of answer) , which is horrifying for someone whose Jap is in a smattering mess.
And Yep. I didn't make it to Level 2. It's like Super Mario meeting the Level 2 King without his mushroom or flower or feather... Back to Level 1.
After that, I didn't have anything else to look forward to, since G fell sick, and I started feeling emo again, didn't want to unleash it on unsuspecting frens or foes or passerbys, that I decided to go home and face the emails...
The email thingy lasted for the rest of the weekend which I also injected some "How I Met your Mother" into it, making it bearable, and also longer since I always get addictedly distracted by the sitcom...
Here's hoping that I get a better, more enjoyable weekend this coming Fri to Tue. Chinese New Year can't go too wrong, right?
Right??
星期一, 12月 29, 2008
Home Alone (not counting B)
Today is the 1st day of the week I'll be all alone with no dinner or anyone at home.
It's so so so... Lonely......
Mom and Sis left for Korea last night... Dad won't be home till late everyday...
These few days will probably just consist of me staring at B, and B staring at me...
I so wish the other B would stare at me... in a good way i guess...
Anyways, I'm just thinking too much... Imagining too much rubbish...
So pple... Ask me out for Dinner if you are free... Please!!!!
It's so so so... Lonely......
Mom and Sis left for Korea last night... Dad won't be home till late everyday...
These few days will probably just consist of me staring at B, and B staring at me...
I so wish the other B would stare at me... in a good way i guess...
Anyways, I'm just thinking too much... Imagining too much rubbish...
So pple... Ask me out for Dinner if you are free... Please!!!!
星期日, 12月 28, 2008
Xmas came and left
Christmas came late... And I think New year will too...
Finally got into the xmas mood only on christmas eve afternoon...
and then the feeling kinda faded off on the 3rd day of Christmas... ARGH...
and now, completely not looking forward towards anything...
Hopefully come 31st morning, I don't forget to get excited...
Finally got into the xmas mood only on christmas eve afternoon...
and then the feeling kinda faded off on the 3rd day of Christmas... ARGH...
and now, completely not looking forward towards anything...
Hopefully come 31st morning, I don't forget to get excited...
星期四, 12月 18, 2008
B1 - Edward Tan Bui Ba, aka Bibi Tan Bao Bei
That stupid B...
Scared me dry...
I thought I lost him...
Though I'm still afraid...
Cos the worst is still not over...
Scared me dry...
I thought I lost him...
Though I'm still afraid...
Cos the worst is still not over...
B2 - My Edward Cullen, BL
I met my Edward Cullen.
And I don't think I'll ever see him again.
"It was nice meeting you."
And I don't think I'll ever see him again.
"It was nice meeting you."
星期一, 12月 15, 2008
Recently...
1. Lost a fren, gained a scary suitor...
2. Found out that Adel gets high with no Alcohol...
3. Went for Zoukout last sat, found it nothing fantastic. In fact, I lost count of how many times I yawned there...
4. Got stood up for something I was secretly waiting for...
5. G and I decided that we want to be Vampires. Apparently the fascination with the nocturnal beings started since young...
6. Had a meeting this morning, and work is going to be even tougher...
7. Realised that I'm back to Square 1.
2. Found out that Adel gets high with no Alcohol...
3. Went for Zoukout last sat, found it nothing fantastic. In fact, I lost count of how many times I yawned there...
4. Got stood up for something I was secretly waiting for...
5. G and I decided that we want to be Vampires. Apparently the fascination with the nocturnal beings started since young...
6. Had a meeting this morning, and work is going to be even tougher...
7. Realised that I'm back to Square 1.
星期三, 12月 10, 2008
星期二, 12月 09, 2008
Dwarves and Snow White
oh ya. suddenly remembered how to spell dwarf.
And tat the girl playing Snow White did it very beautifully. sang really well!! and she looks so much prettier in real life than on the promo brochures.
And tat the girl playing Snow White did it very beautifully. sang really well!! and she looks so much prettier in real life than on the promo brochures.
Snow White in Plastic Surgery Horror
oh ya... forgot to mention about the last Sunday when Adel, Ash and I went for the musical Snow White & the 7 D***** (how to spell tat?) . Gracie and Sylvia in HK, so no one else to disturb for the 2nd half of the long weekend after my JLPT exam on Sunday morning. haix.
anyways, the musical was good in my opinion. very cute and interactive (with kids of cos, we the 20+ old gals did not scream "poison" along with the kids when the queen gave Snow White the poison apple).
not to divulge too much info, lest Miss G who may be reading kills me later for spoiling her snow white experience next week. Basically just telling what's in the sypnosis, the country is super absorbed in beauty that the citizens have a enhancement program (aka cosmetic surgery) once they reach age of 18. Pretty much the now concept since everyone seem to be coming to terms with cosmetic augmentations these days... oh well... Interesting though when told in the Snow White way...
Rating from JT: **** of 5 stars.
Well I just like it. so there. go watch it.
Local productions can be something to look forward to too. plus they are not as ex, unreasonably priced like some overseas productions which maybe nothing much.
reminds me of A-Mei concert VS Rihanna concert. I know which of it I will pay for to go again. and it's not going to be Miss R.
anyways, the musical was good in my opinion. very cute and interactive (with kids of cos, we the 20+ old gals did not scream "poison" along with the kids when the queen gave Snow White the poison apple).
not to divulge too much info, lest Miss G who may be reading kills me later for spoiling her snow white experience next week. Basically just telling what's in the sypnosis, the country is super absorbed in beauty that the citizens have a enhancement program (aka cosmetic surgery) once they reach age of 18. Pretty much the now concept since everyone seem to be coming to terms with cosmetic augmentations these days... oh well... Interesting though when told in the Snow White way...
Rating from JT: **** of 5 stars.
Well I just like it. so there. go watch it.
Local productions can be something to look forward to too. plus they are not as ex, unreasonably priced like some overseas productions which maybe nothing much.
reminds me of A-Mei concert VS Rihanna concert. I know which of it I will pay for to go again. and it's not going to be Miss R.
