It's finally CHRISTMAS EVE!!

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS to all u pple out there!!
This is the day when christmas approaches with all the enthusiam and spirit in the air...
This is the day when I'm supposed to meet his Entire Family.....
ARGH!!
I have had jus the weirdest time of my life going to a gathering of my BF's good gal pals (one of them was his GF a couple of years back). A whole bunch of gals who are very nice pple indeed i believe. But they obviously have one another to bother with, since they all belong to the "Fellowship of the Ring" (cos they all have a ring of friendship each). Who would really wan to care bout me man?? Ks... They are very sweet to try to make me feel at home. it's ok really. I'll juz be the observer instead of trying to fit in. (come on, they know one another since high school, including my BF) Ahem... But I guess I'm juz..... erm... not feeling all that great bout him and his ex being in the same room and supposedly being good pals still.... sigh....
I find R/ships a muz-have but at the same time, it really sux with all those crappy shit that will ultimately arise. YUCKS!!
Hate it,Love it... tt makes both sides of a coin...
take it or leave it...

A merry Christmas on its way...

Christmas is coming real soon... Hope u pple have presents ready for me man... *guffaws*
ANY WAYS, I tried to update the blog with the info tt I'm currently broke n jobless... AGAIN. Yes. Had this shit going on with the stupid company... they juz sent me this breach of contract thingy saying i nvr inform them of my absence frm work when I have already tendered my resignation. all becoz of my Japanese Manager who lost my letter!!! RIDICULOUS!!!!! ARGH!!!!
Enuf of this shit, I'm supposed to spread the love n peace-loving nature of christmas ain't i??? haha... ok...
Well, Good thing is tt I'll be going for a short holiday next SAT wif a bunch of cool frens and we are going to have a whole load of fun in KL man...
N, I think I couldn't be more nervous about meeting my BF's family (n I mean the WHOLE FAMILY frm granma to the little nieces n nephews)... SCARY!!
Anyways, I hereby wish u pple who visits my blog,

A MERRY MERRY 2003 CHRISTMAS n A HAPPY 2003 NEW YEAR!!!!!

Yours TRULY,
Jasmine.

Any Lobangs Anyone??

Me looking for a new job these days...
Cannot take my current job in the long run....
M I too easily brought down?? I ask myself that constantly. But I dunno how else can I actually face the problem. I really tried to do faster... With all those yellow stick-ons (i finished 2 brand new ones within days), I'm planning things more efficiently... But still....... HAIZ...
Just had a 2-days MC. Going back to work tomolo... Hope I won't be drowned by the work load... Hope my collegues actually helped... If not, I'll DIE!!!!! HORRIBLY....

NO LIFE!! PATHETIC!!!

I really really miss school days... All u out there... Who're still studying in school... PLS... Dun waste your time there... Pls Study hard, n Have Good fun in school. Dun ever have the opportunity to regret yr youth there...

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i juz realised tt i've only ben blogging on sundays... YUP. think tt's the only time tt i'm really free... haha... so missing the schooling days....

AARRGGGHHHH!!!!

Tired like shit man... WORK SUX!!!
For the whole week Ive been like working OT n these few days I'm like slaving my nights away till nine plus ten... SIANZ. TIRED.
Today's my off day... but.... still went back to office to finish the unfinished till 3pm... AAAAAARGGGGGGGGHHH!!!!

so so lonely.

Marcus back in camp now.
after the wkend of enjoyment with my dear BF, now back to reality. SIANZ.
He's got camp n I've got to work too... HAIZZZ
Tired. not tokkinh much liao. nitey.

Paiseh.

Hey pple... really... sorry for the ugly arrangement of my blog. it's under construction for like some time cos my "designer" is too busy. pls bear with the ugliness k?? thanx hoh...

Counting down to four more days n then i can see Marcus dear... It has been a long wait u know...

Went to Centro last nite n had quite some bit of fun there. The whole bunch of us went in for free. the crowd there is definitely an older bunch. n it was playing house music, some DJ frm UK was playing. so so different frm the usual Zouk that we visit so regularly. anyways, Kelly n I are probably going to zouk on wed for a fren's Bday. Nathanael. But got to bounce out early cos of my work on thurs. wouldn't wan to end up like a zombie again. sorry boy...

oh ya, it's going to be monday in like an hr plus n it's CHINYEN's BDAY...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

so many pple having their bdaes... SIANZ. i'm damn broke man... it's not like i forget or dun care if i nvr get u anything. but it's cos of me wallet k?? so if u dun get anything frm me, dun get upset k?? paiseh. but u got a poor gal for a fren... haha.

me got to bounce off for now. tired.
Ta~ta...

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Miss Me??

So DAMN long nvr blog liao.... Got miss me????
HAHAHAHAHAHA....
So sianz man... working life = no life... so damn true...
ARGH!!!
Oh me god... Angela's love-life is one messy scandal, n my frens, they're all attached, happy....... ARRRGGHHH... dunno wat I'm trying to say.....
Marcus is now in Kanchanaburi, out-field, n i doubt we can even contact each other at all... HAIZ.
Kelly is busy with skool n work. hardly have time to go out wif me. Sianz. (though we juz met...)
Angela is busy wif work... though we email each other every working day cos our emails are like icq... haha...
Maybelline is slacking cos she juz resigned due to her dislike for her company's management but as weird as she is, she is still working part-time at tat company...
Ivan is back frm Melbourne, and i think he's super stressed by his pervertic boss. SAD.

For me, work can be quite horrible some times... shipments piling up n i'm like rushed into a frenzy of doing all the permits n stuffs... n i'll definitely forget something n end up causing a loss for my company. Y, juz sat, my manager asked me into the meeting room to tok to me privately about my loss-making incident.... scared the shit out of me...


Think i m sounding awkward in my blogging... guess i m getting rusty due to the lack of practice for so long... MAN, i used to blog every day... well, almost.....
NVM. Think i really shld get into some exercises n trim my body....
KK....
Ta~ta...
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Catching my breath...

Hey... Haiz... Me now really feeling the burn-out of working life now... STRESSED OUT man... Everyday is like so hectic and u pretty much can't do any other thing. U BARELY HAVE FREE TIME!! shit. it's like u go to work wif all yr enthusiam n energy full blast, by the end of the day, u r like worn out n weary, juz wanting to go home n rest. NO social life, NO more fun, NO happy.... HAIZ.

Anyways, me gtg. going to sleep in a while. replenishing the energy for tomorrow's "battle"...
so long.

Starting Work Tomorrow!! (Finally)

YOZ.
Me super excited now man... In a few hours time, I will be beginning my first full-time job ever MAN!! Remember the Nippon Express that I spoke of on Monday?? This is it. I've been selected for the job as a shipping co-ordinater... Heehee... Not tt I'm wow about the job itself. It's more like I'm wow over having a full-time job which pays ok, working hrs ok. Anyways, Me have Gillian and Yumei to thank cos it's becos of their working relations to the company that i can get the job so easily man... HAHA. Thanx a lot BABES!! If U ever see this tt is...
I suddenly have the urge to go check out a lesbian party man... Think it'll be a real eye-opener for me...
Last nite was quite ok. Maybelline n I each had 3 shooters (China White) and a cocktail (DBLO) at DBLO to start the nite. Kelly couldn't get into DBLO so we went to MDM Wong in hope for free flow for her, only to realise tt there was no free flow. Then we hopped over to this unknown pub called the cheeky monkeys cos there was free flow n the pple at the door were persuading us to go in... Turned out tt it was more for ANGMOs n rather quiet. So there, Kelly had her free flow of Gin Tonic and 7up Vodka and by 11pm, we were ready to bounce to Zouk. Oh yeah, on our way, we met Linda and the 4 of us hopped in a cab heading for Zouk.
Zouk was quite alright. We wanted to play this game of seeing who could get 3 guys no.s in the shortest time, but turned out tt the 4 of us were to chickened out to play it, so the game was aborted. HAHA. So useless...
SO, the nite ended wif the 4 of us gals, going home separately and without any new contacts. HAIX. Who ask us to be so cowardy??? HAHA.
Ks. Me Got to go orhorh early. GOT WORK ok?! HAH.
NITEY NITEZZz.

Boring day.

Yawns.
Had an interview in the afternoon. at this Japanese Company which two of my poly classmates are working at. Nippon Express. Mind u, it's not the paint company u know. it's actually this shipping company for imports n exports. n i was being interviewed by this Japanese guy who doesn't speak good Eng. N boy do i have a hard time trying to decipher wat he was trying to put across to me. HAIZ.
Slacked at Frederick's place. With Xuehua of cos lah. can't possibly be there alone rite?? we're tokking bout my best fren's BF here u know. ya. n not forgetting the fact tt he's my FIRST LOVE... HAHA. Jus have to say tt again.
Now back home slacking n blogging. SIANZ. I had only 1 meal for the whole day by the way. n it ain't much.
Whew. Think i've got too much complaints man... gotta stop it. Poor Marcus is now sloggin away in camp with his paperwork when he juz finished a dry, hot, muddy day in Tekong... Compared to him I guess I'm way better. K.

Tequila Time!

Time for another round of tequila shots!! Kelly's staying over once again. N we're gonna get drunk man... HAHA. Ciao.

Feels Weird.

Hey ya.
As the title says, I do feel kinda weird today. It's like a very empty feeling within and that emptiness is actually churning inside, making me think and at the same time not be thinking of anything (in other words, STONED). Ya.
Maybe it's my empty stomach.
Or perhaps... . . . . . .

Bad day, Great Night!

The day was terrible. the job i was tokking about was of a moronic system where there's no basic pay but only commision-based. SHUCKS. So it means if i work there, And if i dun get any sales or profit for the company, i dun get paid despite any effort i ever put in to the work...
Anyways, the night was worth something to be tokked about however. Kelly, Maybellline, Maybelline's frens: Nicky, Wendy n Phobe, and of cos ME.
We went to Centro at 9 plus, ten and i nearly couldn't get in cos i was wearing slippers. then we juz went out to check out Weiyuan from Embargo cos he was working there. Sweet guy. Treated us, poor gals to a few glasses of coke when we didn't have any drinks ordered. Think it was becos he couldn't stand the look of us sitting there not having anything on the table.. haha... anyways, THANX boy!!
ANYWAYS, we went back to Centro and had a fashion show of hunks dressed in Renoma briefs!! *SHRIEK* yeah. haha. they were posing in those undies n doing sit-ups, push-ups right there!! WOW. *Looks up skywards n thank those up there who makes it happen* MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Anyways the music was not too bad. in fact i rather like it. but apparantly, Nicky n her frens didn't like the music. so ya. they wanted to hop over to China Black. Poor IVAN juz came in n he had to pay to get in, n there we are suddenly hopping over to another bar where he has to pay again. but anyways, the nice guy dropped us there n went off to meet his frens. think he's in Melbourne now. he had a 6am flight wif his pervertic boss. hope he's safe man.. haha. THANX LION!!
Yeah n Kelly couldn't get in cos she wasn't old enuf. (weird) n we then bar-hopped to Zouk where Nicky n frens joined us there. Yeah. i still like Zouk bast. juz tt this time i spent more time in phuture.
ANYWAYS, (whew. this blog sure is long. hope u're still awake) Nicky had alot of guys going up to her for no. wow... Kelly had one too. Though hmm.. NVM.
I saw a few cuties there too. but think it's cos i'm too shy to make too much eye contact n probably becos of my executive dressing for the day which made me look old. ya. so sad... SAD.
But anyways, I got one no too, for fun. HAHA. Think he muz be blind...

Longest Blog ever man... GTG. Ta~ta

Cross yr fingers.

Yeah. I need u guys to cross yr fingers for my sake. cos i juz went for an interview at an advertising company, Dreamworks Pte Ltd (for goodness sake, it's not anything to do with the movies or steven spielberg AT ALL) and I'm informed to go for a 1-day trial with a mkting exec tomolo at the office. HOPE i make thru it. HOPE i get the job....

Sure Hope so.

Back to Reality...

Everything of the exhibition is finally over. The MTA2003 ended. Emiko went back to Japan. I'm unwillingly drawn back to reality. HAIX.
Now I've got to go find a full-time job. It's only juz tat i realised tt everyone around me has gotten a full-time n are probably all working now. This very instant. HAIX.
This feels real lonely. HAIX.
Good bye to the late nitez of fun... Hello cruel reality of job-hunt... HAIX.

Quite Happening with the "easily-excited"...

I'm the "easily-excited" gal. haha. kinda funny.... cos me n Kelly were like tokking on our job... n then tokking bout lots of other stuffs. n i was somehow very much excited bout the topics easily, ya, n thus the name.
Anyways, Emiko, Kelly n I went to Little India this time. We had Fish Head Curry, mutton, n rice at a rather authentic Indian Restaurant. WE noticed something bout the rice as it was long n thin n flat, compared to the Japanese Rice. This is so because of the absorbility. Curry is best eaten with harder, non-soggy rice... whereas the Japanese wans the soft n sticky....

We were wanting to shop but alot of Shops were closed already..
*HAIX*
Then we went to meet Marcus n went for a tea at millenia walk. n then to Hello @ Singnet for KTV.
Now I'm so exhausted. Think I'll be going to bed, nitey, nitez.

DBLO is not as great as u think!

I have to blog this man, my first visit to DBLO.
It sucked.
I had to queue so super long for the drinks n i got cut in the queue several times, being jabbed by elbows, stepped on by heels, spilled with the drinks... YA. tat's how 'fun' we had. Both Maybelline n Me. HAIX. SIANZ.
The gals there are damn bitchy man. juz cut my queue without any ounce of remorse. n it's a few grps of gals cutting my pathetic queue at one go!! And the stupid bartender chooses who to serve first. Whole load of CRAP n BULLSHIT.

Anyways, got to comment tt HE is coming back next thurs. Dunno wat i'm actually feeling now.....

Still Tired from last nite's clubbing...

Wow... juz saw my blog yesterday. really tokking nonsensically..... dunno wat i was going at...
Well, my brain is still not functioning properly now... juz got home from meeting a fren who's a HP dealer. had to meet him to get my hp repaired. Haiz. hard work travelling frm EXPO to Potong Pasir. But no choice, it's my hp man.... Still got to go meet him tomolo to collect my hp. He said he'll be calling me later. Somehow it feels abit like entertaining. cos he can help me get hps cheap. HAIX. think it's pretty evil of me... HOW?!
Anyways, i forgot to tok bout the trip to Chinatown. I actually had the opportunity to take a ride on a rickshaw for the first time in my life. HAHA. Cool. We had chicken rice n dumplings n sugarcane juice n Emiko loved them. She actually tot that the $5 chicken rice at EXPO foodcourt was cheap!! HAH.
KK. me going to bathe now. coming back in a while i think. see if i have more things to wirte on the blog...
ta~ta

Juz returned home from Zouk Mambo...

Disappointed man........ No cute guys to look n drool at. At Mambo Jumbo Nite at Zouk lah......... Sianz.
Now suffering frm lack of sleep. TIRED.
Feel like sleeping. cos have to wait for the time to get a free drink.

Think I'm tokking Nonesesical things now... kk. NITEZ

Paiseh.

Here's the link again.
http://www.metalasia.com/mta2003/

Oh ya. Here's the link to Metal Asia 2003!!

WOW... Cool day at EXPO!!

Me first day of the 5-days work at Expo doing the exhibition. It's this MTA 2003 -- Metal Asia 2003. Exhibits Machineries and other equipments. Lots of foreigners actually go visit. I haven seen everything at the fair yet so ya, can't say much for the fair.
Me n Kelly are stationed at this booth at the Japan section where we actually promote the JIMTOF 2004, which is the Japanese version of the fair in Japan, supposedly larger and more 'happening'. Said to be the top 3 famous or popular fair ranked in the world. And there's to be the demostrations of more equipments at tt fair... Way pro rite??
Anyways, back to the pt, we are to get pple to register for the fair which is free, and will receive details on how to travel Tokyo cheap. Ya so u pple there who r interested in going Tokyo can register wif us... HAHA... Actually, Kelly n I are super interested. Emiko who's the person-in-charge for our booth, and oso my cousin's varsity fren, is an extremely sweet soul who takes the time to explain and try to listen to our atrocious Japanese... Poor dear... HAHA.

Really... Whoever who's interested in travelling Japan pls leave a comment k?? cos Me trying to rope in pple to go for a trip. If not Bangkok for shopping. For the Japan trip, I'll try to figure the cheapest way to enjoy the trip. Probably at Ryokan (house inns run by residents) or student hostels.
Drop me a line if u have any suggestions too k??

~Tata~

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TT's way weird.
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I'm a computer idiot!!

Shit. Realised that I'm so very terrible at computers. Whatever tt's got to do with computers... Just fixed up this comments thingy ALL BY MYSELF when my NICE cousin, ENA keeps putting off the job and tt i have to DO IT MYSELF...... YA.

Anyways, I realised that it is always at the lowest point of one's life when one will truly understand and feel the need and urge to go upgrade oneself, like learning something, doing useful activities, taking up classes or something. Well, at least it's something good happening...
Like for example, me, I realised I'm pretty bad in computers and the net, so I'm actually making an effort here to go try this blogging stuffs... At the same time, it'll do my English some good(i think) by having this "online diary" sorta thing. ERMs... But definitely not with all these "shit", "erm", etc... HAHA.

So u pple there, go pick up some thing to learn or do for the society ok?? It's a pretty good feeling that u'll get in the end... *smiles*

~Tata~

life is not all about r/ships. it's about feeling good about yrself in whatever u do. at any point of time. be it bad or good times, one shld do things tt one shall nvr regret.

for now i think though i still m hurt by the broken r/ship with Andrian, I m definitely in the process of putting things behind me n moving on bit by bit. earlier on was kinda terrible as i still haboured hopes for a patch-back. but now, the way i see it, wat's over is over. unless fate pulls the strings back n let them meet. ya.

anyways, was dead drunk again at mambo last nite. frm wat i've heard frm my frens there, think my reputation there is now in the dumps... HAHA.... no lah. doubt it's tt bad.

i had a wild night wif Kelly at my place last nite. dun be mistaken ye pple... juz drinking tequila n grooving in my room... tt's all. clean pure fun man... i was dead drunk... haha.... it's fun.
think i'll do tt again. ask more pple over or somthing... HAHA.....
Party on!!

oh ya... happy belated bday to Kelly dear!!

i've decided.
for a guy who's faithless in a r/ship with me, i think i'm not going to wait around any longer. i like him so much n i do believe we can be together, if we make an effort. but since he's not willing to even try, i think i can forget about him. quit mopping around, waiting for the day he'll turn n sae he wants n loves me. it's impossible the way i see it now. WATEVER.

I'm going to start anew. So HAppy!!!

r/ships sucks. when u're in one, it'll feel wonderful n everything like a dream but of cos wif its dose of ups n downs. but when it abruptly ended, everything tt happened will be over n u are then expected to get over it as fast as possible n go on to find a new dream again. it's constantly starting n ending. i HATE the way how it goes. wat's the use of starting something tt's going to end so soon??

everything comes to an end.

nothing ever last.

i had a dream of him. we parted in it.

i'm constantly crying for nothing. i hate it.

he wans to continue to tok to me as a fren. i dun know if i can deal wif it for now.

depressed.
i miss him.

juz broke up with him. n pls dun ask me y. not now.

now at my cousin's place writing this blog. tokking on ICQ wif quite a number of fren's online. tomorrow i'm actually having this graduation ceremony at Ngee Ann Poly. SIANZ. tt's y have to come all the way here to borrow the outfit. HAIZ.
BUZY BUZY... can't tok much.
anyways juz to sae again, i juz bought my digital cam. i'll go take pics tomolo n if i can figure how to post it here at blog, i'll do so. so anyone can help pls tell me. THANX.
NITEY

i guess it's not tt bad to work now. i've got quite some job vacancies for me to take up now. not for long-term. but i guess i can do it for now. for the money at least.
me juz bought a digita camera today. it's quite a bargain. but is also the first time tt i pay so much frm my own pocket. SIANZ.
but for now, i'm happily taking pics n sending to my BF now. i guess it's a form of communication wif him ya?? anyways, this coming Wednesday is my graduation ceremony. I'll then bring my new camera for some shots of my frens in Ngee Ann Poly for the last time... Kinda miss it already... Haiz.
Tomolo got an interview for the starhub job in the morning. got to sleep early. ciao.

my parents juz came home wif a decision for me. to not study n go work to earn $$ for the family instead.

i'm too peeved to write anything else.

think tt i've been whining too much to my bf... n i think he's a little sick of me already... we had a rather bad episode yesterday actually... not regarding the whining but it's becoz of the distance between us... he's there in melbourne n i'm here in singapore. n there'll be months before we can see each other again... HAIX.
he thinks it's unfair to me. n his fren who is totally in love with her bf n her bf loves her back, but they can't b together cos of their religion. they have to break off when they r both too deep in the r/ship. which brings us back to my story, tt he doesn't want me to end up like tt. too deep in but have no choice but to part.
but silly him, doesn't he know tt i've tot thru b4 i even want to be together wif him?? i guess it's a way to show his respect for me, by letting me have another chance to break free frm this r/ship... but i guess i dun wan it now.
BUT, i juz realised. i'm like not in any r/ship at all presently. cos i dun have to go report to my bf, dun have to go meet him... juz the phone calls n daily icq bridging the communication between us both.

Haix. this is hard.

HEY HEY... my mistake... or rather, my computer's fault i think... my frens were online but i can't see them. WEIRD.

for the first time ever, i'm online n everybody else i know is offline... i mean on ICQ n MSN lah... especially at this time... i mean, this is the peak period when pple shld be online ritE?? Weird. like there's a conspiracy or something... somthing i totally have no idea about... SHIT.
Supposed to go joggin with my best fren frm Primary Skool, to meet up at 9.30am at a particular stadium. but i woke up at 9.50am instead, n went to the wrong stadium cos of communication breakdown, letting her wait for an hr... oops. then went to have Mcdonald's breakfast n went to my place for some aerobics on VCD. somthing like aerobics wif Suzy Allen. Healthy life style yeah?? haha... we even decided tt i shall try out a full period of daily dosage of tomato juice since it's supposed to give good complexion n is healthy... good thing i like tomato juice.
then met up wif Xuehua who then bought me my tomato juice n we went looking for her gift to her BF(by the way, her BF is my first love... HAHA)...
Think i'll end off here... surprisingly n unfortunately, nobody n i mean no one i know at all is online. DARN.
......... . . . . . . IS THERE SOMTHING TT I SHLD KNOW?!?!?!?!?!

i got the confirmation letter frm MDIS juz yesterday. both elated n stressed. elated cos i'm going back to skool for REAL this time round. but stressed becos of my family's financial situation which doesn't really allow me for further education. now my family n relatives are split to 2 sides where 1 side thinks i can make it thru with flying colours n the other side thinking tt i will fail. so everyone is actually fixing their eyes on me. STRESS.
Anyways, me went to library today n borrowed 5 fiction on vampires... haha... i guess i've been facinated wif vampires frm an early age. when i was young, i used to think i'm a vampire in the making, n tt i would someday evolve into one. dunno y. but i somehow "sense" tt i was no ordinary being... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! so much for being ignorant...
And also, i was browsing around for digital cams just this afternoon n i found something i really like. SONY cybershot 10. i mean ya, at this pt of time, there are so many better ones in the market but i choose something from last year's SONY series. Well, ya, but i'm quite broke n m planning on getting a new HP Samsung A500 (sleek red one wif no special functions). So ya.
SHIT. forgot wat else i was intending to blog... er...... erm... hmm........
Aiyah. forget it. me abit lazy to think liao... so tt's it.
Ta~ta.

hi. i guess i'm supposed to be happy n everything since i've already registered n the confirmation letter shld be coming real soon...
BUT. now i have a huge prob on hand. . . . . . $$ problems!
Very huge $$ problems... becos of my mass communication course. the fees, the daily expenses, the textbks, the other miscellaneous expenses... *sigh* would probably add up to $30,000!!!
My family is currently having cashflow problems n i haven much savings to speak of. hence, this whole $30,000 would really prove to be problematic. Sure enuf, my uncle would be lending it to me. but...
I'm not tt close to tt uncle of mine, n it's really like going to him onli when i have probs n tt i need $$. tt is so....... *sigh*
i really dun wan to have to do tt...
Now tt i'm having so much financial crisis, I can't really tell my BF who's away in Melbourne studying... cos u know y?? he's juz too different from me... i doubt he'll have as much cashflow problems as i have. NO. corrections. i doubt he has any at all... cos he's juz so rich. not damn rich. but rich enuf to not have such problems... how to tell him??? *sigh*
watever he wans he has... his family owns a company in jakarta n watever he needs he juz have to ask. how will he ever understand?? ok. even if he does understand, i wouldn't wan him to pity me or wat. Haix.

think i'll go brood over it myself now. HAIX.

heyhey... i'm back for a blog. me very excited... cos tomolo will be the day i go register for my mass communication course with MDIS!! i'm going back to studying!!!!! I'm very looking forward to it.
anyways, juz to blog something tt happened to me which is both very much humiliating n disgusting. i went to a specialist today to see wat's the prob wif my abdominal systems... to check my intestines, the stupid but cute doc shove a dunno-how-many-inches metal scope up my asshole... AARRGGGHHH!! SHIT. i can't seem to sit after tt... I mean, the feeling of the whole procedure is like having yr shit going back in instead of squeezing out.... YUCKS. unforgettable.
the stupid doc still asking me to go for another checkup which costs $200-300, n is wif a LONGER SCOPE!!!! Yikes!! NO way m i going to do tt. the first time's bad enuf..... think i'll be having nightmares of this for many nights to come...............................................

HAHA. the prob or rather, misunderstanding has been resolved. me n my dear back to our old sickeninly sweet selves... haha... kidding lah...... not as sweet as wat i described lah..... but not bad lah...... heehee...
me tired liao. juz to blog the fact tt i juz got my right ear pierced twice today. now i have 3 on my right n one on my left......

by the way, m i being unreasonable??
No right??

*thinks hard*

by the way, m i being unreasonable??
No right??

this is weird... I'm like having a split personality wif my boyfren.
I'm being a chummy buddy and a caring galfren at different times.
now i'm juz being this best fren buddy of his, cos i admitted to him tt i'm falling in love wif him n i asked,"u wouldn't want tt to happen rite??", n he ans, "in the future. so now we be best frens although we're together."
so tt's tt.
I'll BE his BUDDY. the bestest fren he can get frm a "GF". BEST.
Great!
COOL.
WONDERFUL.
NO more GF.
Come on loh... the "GF" is having PMS!!

Today's a day which i can't say whether i'm happy about anot... juz felt angry in the mornin, happy in the afternoon, sad in the evening. n now i feel nothing. WEIRD.
Played the Sims, had a great time making sims i dun like die n sims i like fall in love with one another...
erm... nothing much to blog though...
Shan't continue then...
Ta~ta...

YO yo... Me have to disappear in a while. cos my mom nagging me to go eat breakfast n start the day of house chores... argh. Anyways today is Singapore's National day. Happy BDae Singapore!!

OKOK Mom calling for me again... got to go.

Ta~ta...

WE're finally TOGETHER!!
Erm... not really something to be wow about actually. cos the r/ship is going on thru the phone instead of the proper face-to-face kind.
No choice. cos he's over there in Melbourne n I'm here in Singapore. So it's a long-distanced r/ship for like 4.5 yrs... like shit huh... i'm really not sure if it can last that long...
i'm already feeling abit of the strain... can't see each other. so far away frm one another.

AArrrrggggggggghhhhhh!!!!
dunno lah... i dun wan to think too much on it... just see what happens. it's a endurance test for the both of us oso.

Anyways, here's the funny scoop on our r/ship...
the both of us used to hate each other. he DISGUSTED me. i PISSED him off.
then dunno y... we happened to like each other at ard the same time... *sigh*

Come to think of it, i think it's fate tt FORCED us together. haha... i call it force cos i totally didn't wan to like him. i was trying to make myself continue disliking him... it juz didn't work. SHIT.
Dramatic huh?? HAH!
Come What May.

k. think it's enuf gossip for the day...
fill u in on new updates another time. Ta~ta!!

Today is full of mixed feelings... I realised many things ard me... and also things about myself...
First things first.
I think i'm falling in love.
Wif a guy who's younger than me, who has a personality entirely different frm me, whom i hated.
I was like, "oh... SHIT!"
He said tt i'm cynical. I gues it is true to some extent. I've had experiences when my exes jumped out of the train when i fnally opened up my heart to them. the sweet flattery from their mouths now feel tasteless to me... i din even believe the flattering words he told me.....
Arrgghh. Forget it. Watever... Nitey hoh... me tired like shit.......