Emo

yeah... feeling Emo...

dunno why...

half-wishing that he'll call and ask me out so that I can reject him...
half-wishing that he'll call and ask me out so that I can see him...

either ways, it's disappointment. 'cos he nvr even msged for the whole week...


shit... this is not healthy...

I must get distracted......
I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......I must get distracted......

Gracie's ASS List

[16:05] Jas @ Work: ASS
[16:06] gracie: okay I'm going to give you a list of words you can choose from to reply ASS's smses:
No
Can't
Bye
Busy
Whatever
We'll see
Bugger Off
[16:06] gracie: stick to The ASS List
[16:07] gracie: do not add any smiley faces
[16:07] Jas @ Work: I am so suppressing my laughter over here...
[16:07] gracie: do not respond within 20 minutes of receiving the smses
[16:08] gracie: if you break any ASS rules I will whack you

eg, ShyGuy: "want to meet up for drinks tomorrow?"Jas: "Can't."

Yes madam...

Mr. Ass Part III

Another reason why he's Mr. Ass...



Act.Shy.Sxxxx
Contributed by Gracie.

Mr. Ass Part II

ok...

Mr Ass is cute... Super cute...

And Mr Ass hits on my girl frens too...

Mr. Ass

Why Mr. Ass?

Cos he's got a nice arse.
And he's an asshole.

I can't believe I fell for that act!!!
And the worst thing is I can't believe that I'm still stuck!!!!


ARGH

Things happening

Once again, my frens who cannot be bothered to check on my never-updated blog, it's time for an inside of what's happening in my life... not that you would be interested... but just pretend to be, will you... haha...

Well, since Jan 2008, I have been working at NOL doing Pricing and it's been pretty interesting so far... going to be confirmed soon... Yipee!! Though I dun think there's going to be an increment... oh well...
Basically, I love my colleagues there, and I love the strategizing stuffs... just not really the pple i deal with directly... GOSH... no comments on that... I dun wan to be found out...

Family wise, staying close I suppose, and my cousin who's younger than me by 4 mths i think, is getting married this Sept... and I'm the bridesmaid... the OFFICIAL one... I think... since I'm getting to wear that special dress... Woohoo!!!! The dress I tell you... It's GORGEOUS!!!!!!! champagne gold with gold laces and trimmings... I absolutely LOVE that dress... It's my size!!! as of current la... haix...

Lovelife is a blank for now. except for the pple who passed by... but still not much. I'm kinda freaked out now... R/ships are just too hard to grow... I'm tired...

Work is tiring and boring at the same time... but... oh well... better than exciting to the point where you cannot breathe... haha...


okok... I need to blow my hair dry then get to sleep so that I can be more efficiently fending off my violin teacher's electrica arrows in the moring violin class tomorrow... NITEZ.

彼が もう いない

今の感じ　すごく変。くやしくて、さびしいです。

彼が　もう　かえりません。

私　一人も　だいじょうぶ。　

Changes

Got refunded, got a new job, new perspective...

What else is new?

The Bad in Life Makes You See The Good Better

I really want to just declare something in the middle of my hectic work piles...

Something really important to me.

Or rather someone.



Dear God,

Thank you for sending N into my world of Hard-headed Stupidity.
For gently pointing out my weaknesses, my wrongs, For overthrowing my world, making me upset and cry, And then For holding and consoling me till I get out of my tantrums.

May we continue in love and conquer the atrocities of life together.


PS: it really takes something horrible to realise something wonderful that has always been there... Then again, it's probably not that huge... just horrible to me.

Work Woes

Seems like all I'm blogging about these days are just disatisfaction from work and that I'm constantly landing up in places I really don't want to be in...

Haix... The grass is always greener on the other side...

I'm hoping that HP or Renaissance gives me a reply soon so that I'll know I can leave....

Pls let there be green pastures for me if I move....

2 mths notice is a long long time.....

Unhappy, Unsatisfied, Unfufilled.

I'm still making stupid mistakes at work and it's killing me fast.
I feel it's thoroughly political in here and my errors in my work are just quickening my death here...

Haix...

Out of the frying pan into the boiling pot...
Either ways I'm dead...

*crossing my fingers, hoping for a chance at a change.*

Hopefully my next stint will be something I can do well at.

Mad about the Pretty Boy...

Anyways,
I'm currently hooked on this guy... and he's like so so so..... gorgeous... to me la...

it's like i dream of him sometimes... daydream...


He acts in this teen drama serial 公主小妹, an adaptation from a Jap Manga 我家小妹by Kazuko Fujita. And he's so........ so cute....


cannot tahan....


here's a shot of him...

Oh well... One can only dream when the guy is a dreamily-good-looking idol...

My fave manga 彼氏彼女の事情 aka Kare Kano which depicts a story about the main character, Yukino Miyazawa, a Japanese high school freshman who is the envy of her classmates because of her good grades and immaculate appearance. However, this is just a charade she maintains to win praise—at home and in private, she is spoiled, stubborn, and a slob, and studies relentlessly instead of spending time with her sisters. Her position is threatened by Soichiro Arima, a handsome young man who also gets top grades. Yukino considers his very existence to be a challenge to her class leadership positions and a threat to the praise on which she thrives, and so she vows to destroy him. But after some misunderstandings, they see past each other's facades and fall in love. The series follows their relationship as they are tested by school, family problems, and friends. (Quoted from Wikipedia)

Anyways, the point is, my most recent daydream is actually to act in this drama if they ever have an adaptation.. and my male lead, I think Wu Zun's one of the most suitable male stars in the entertainment biz for this role so far... HOHOHOHO...

One can only dream........

Catching up... Trying...

I know this is probably the X time in my blog life, that I come back to bloggin after a really long lapse of time. You know... there's work and other things in life that requires much of my attentions all the time... Blogging is more like an activity based on feeling la... U can't blog when you have absolutely nothing you want to blog about right??

Well... Things have certainly changed quite some bit since my last post...

Career wise, well, I have left that god-forsaken place a couple of months back... Currently slogging and slacking at this UK MNC. haha... my title in fact sounds pretty glam... oh well, job wise might not be my cup of tea... but pple here (my clique) that is are pretty ok... fun to be with in fact. though some back-stabbing and office politics going on la... but hey, what's an office without a little drama-rama?? it's definitely much better than life at SASA.. I'm not complaining so far...

Though again, I do have some job offers ard... hopefully they pay even better with better job prospects.. I'll jump ship if the offer is too tempting to resist, so hopefully they do tempt me... haha... then again, i feel guilty about doing the jump since the current company had welcomed me with open arms... HAIX....

Trying my luck at something which i had always been striving for... Will update on it if things go my way... right now it's still on pending status...

Yup... enuf said for now...
not going to say when's my next post... oh well...
my frens know it's fruitless to be waiting and expecting my posts...

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!

The Joys

Long long time ago when i was still bloggin, i whined and complained endlessly about my work @ SASA.

Now I'm still there.

Haix...

Not as bad as it used to be... but still... this industry is not a good place for money making.
good for the interest but not for the pocket.

think i rather get more money than be so poor... earning more can probably get me the Shiseido skincare that i have always eyed, instead of the many samples i can get from my suppliers...

one of the things i'll most definitely miss is the bulk of freebies which i can get from SASA.
Discount, and samples...

in fact, ask my boyfriend how many hair products i have in his bathroom. it's frightening.

another thing that i'll really miss is the supplier interactions that I'm required to have here.
like my Supplier from Phyto just gave me and my colleagues a free $148 hair spa treatment to enjoy. and also the Gatsby Launch Party @ Zouk next friday where I'm invited as guest.
WOOHOO!!!

Oh well, the perks that come with them, i'll have to forgo the higher better salaries which my friends from other industries are bringin home...

Shall I stay or shall I go?

Creepy Quiet office... with Just the Devil and me...

It's annoyingly quiet this morning in the office since most of my colleagues are at Lot1 Sasa doing stock-taking... leaving just me and 2 to 3 colleagues and tat scary boss who's really wearing Prada today and her faithful LV gold & glass ring...

Creepy...

Blogging for Nick

Haha... Char n May are probably rolling their annoyingly big eyes and snorting in disgust.

Yes. boyfren is the word. Nicholas Benjamin Paul the 1/4 Ah-Pu-Ne-Ne, 3/4 Chinese.

Met at Salsa Intermediate 1, got abit attracted to his quirky sense of humour and then escalated into fatal attraction when he ignored me and dated other girls.. HOHOHOHOHOHO....

But then....... it wasn't too long until I started plotting my takeover, and it took just 1 movie n late dinner for me to make him fall head over heels for moi!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
KEKEKEKEKEKE!!!!!!!!!!
YAKYAKYAKYAKYAKYAK!!!!!!!
HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!!!

*ahem*

well, on a serious note, I really have to remind every girl that one shld never ever blog, or let yr fren put your blog link on their blogs, or u displaying on pics with yr fren's URL on friendster, if you have a IT-savy boyfren and you don't want him to have access to your girls' talk and outing details............


A short note to Nic:
Goods sold are not refundable.

A Revolutionary Change

Actually there's nothing revolutionary about the change, but it's just huge and ya... affecting every part of my life currently...

First, about my job @ Sasa, I've probably mentioned it before. so.. ya... I'm still there. not to worry. Still alive... not kicking however, just quietly hiding and minding my own business everyday. Everyday is a battle going on, and I work hard at giving in to my bosses and keeping mum about things i dun like.

Second, about my mom. She got hospitalised a few wks back for her inheritary eye problems which resulted from her blood pressure shooting up. I'll try to help out with the house chores and not make her worry or angry. I'll try.

Next, my already-started violin classes and my commencing Jap class in end-March making me very poor and but very fufilled in life. Oh well, pros and cons for everything one decides to do. In fact, I can play twinkle twinkle little star, ode to joy after my first lesson and currently practicing to play Charades of Fire and Canon in D... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA....

And of cos, last but not least, an important addition in my life, a new someone who trys to fit into my already colorful portrait despite my initial uncertainty... I wouldn't say that we'll have a grand future, but as far as i can see, it's all possible.
I really like the way he dotes on me, the way he values me, the way he takes care of me, the way he holds my hands, the way he smiles at me, the way he goes all out to fetch me... ya.. these are probably things that only happens when the moon is still honey-coated. oh well, will enjoy it while it lasts... Heehee...

Thank you Lord for making things happen and the things that didn't happen, I know you meant a reason for them.
May I always love and respect you O Lord.

What a Lonely Girl Needs: Reverse Harem

Example of the Reverse Harem. I LIKE...

Reverse Harem.

I got that phrase from Ouran High School Host Club (Anime). This little girl who's one of the school's rich senior's little sister sprouted that one day when i was watching the anime, and i was like wondering what the hell it meant. Chotto Hen ne...

Then a few mths later, my sister who by then has been very very well-aquainted with animes, and their respective anime lingos, informed me that Reverse Harem is the girl version of harem animes, like the normal harem: Love Hina has its male lead surrounded by bishoujos (pretty girls). The reverse Harem basically has it reversed (thus the name), the female lead surrounded by a hoard of Bishounens (gorgeous hunks)!!!!

Woooohhhh... That is so like my cup of tea... I Love the sound of that!!!!

So off me go to find my reverse Harem collections of animes, games and mangas... And I realised... There is not alot... especially in the animes and games section...

I mean what's up with that??!?!?!?! I read in a forum where some idiot was commenting on how disgusted he/she was with the bishounen fanservice in a particular anime i am crazy about... i was like "WHAT?!?!?!"

So it's not disgusting to have a average lead male to be surrounded by tonnes of gorgeous busty females who from time to time can't help but show their abundant cleavages, and it's totally disgusting to have a pretty lead surrounded by her hoard of hotties who does nothing too gross, maybe just coming out of the bathroom without a top?

Talk about double standards...

Anyways, tat was just to let out some steam i stored over the days...

Single gals need Reverse Harem!!! I mean Attached and married women too!!!!

Why should game/anime/manga producers concentrate on creating more n more harem games with the same old settings and plot where there's already so many of it in the market, and not do anything for the hungry reverse harem fans??? I dun need to see sex scenes u know, just dating and romance will do...

So to all anime/games/manga producers.

GIVE ME MY REVERSE HAREM GAMES, ANIMES, AND MANGAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WARNING...

I just got warned by my colleagues here and there; work faster, look more alive, look interested... HAIX...

Apparently the stupid company is going thru alot of changes and I need to prove my worth fast to stay... SHIT. No wonder the devil calls and visits me almost every other day. i need to have this auto-off for msn man... She always manages to come by at the times when my bloody msn window blinks. ARGH.

Work is not enjoyable here @ Sasa, cos the pple here are not exactly the nicest people in the world. Well, at least from what I have gathered so far...

And I'm like super quiet in the office this entire time and I feel like I'm an outcast alot of times...
This is bad... But I'll try to recall my experience @ Polo, how I grappled with being new and getting to know my work n colleagues better...
maybe it's the same...

Lord, Pls bless me with the determination to go thru this bad times cheerfully, and bless that there may be a beauitful rainbow on the other side of the bad weather.

The Devil wears Miu Miu

Yes. My boss is the devil who wears Miu Miu...

Just this morning, she came by my table and asked me this.

"Jasmine, have you been yawning today?"

of cos me the eager-to-save-my-ass newbie replied,
"Nope. Have been trying my best to put a stop to it."
And then that practiced bright and cheerful smile which to tell that I am happy and raring to do my best in my work.

And to that back-stabbing colleague, I have had tat nice attitude towards her too...

Haix... What have I become?? Such a hypocrite...