Hey hey… haven been blogging much these days… busy. With wat u ask??
Me myself dunno wat was I busy with… think I’m was in space.
Oh ya man, I haven blogged about my wind-surfing experience from the last last wkend. It was tough to learn wind-surfing man… lots of arm-power required. Which I lack…
But when the beginner starts to be able to balance on the board n do abit of surfing with the mast n sail up, the self-satisfaction is actually quite high. It’s actually quite a thrill for sports fans. But not too easy esp for a weak beginner like me, to pick it up. Although it is possible…
Considering the fact tt I’m rather fickle-minded, I think I wouldn’t be taking it seriously as a core sport. Anyways, maybe going mountain-climbing with the same bunch of NP grads like me. Probably. Waiting for Mr Ong to make things happen.
On the other hand, think I’m more or less used to Marc’s absence. Cos I’m not feeling too much these days, though kinda whiny when everyone’s busy, out dating while I’m all alone. Understandable huh?
I think. For me to be driving on the roads is not exactly safe. Haha. Cos I suck? All road-users, Beware.
alright. there's juz approximately one more week before Marcboi returns.
feel like going Malaysia. but no idea where exactly... any suggestions pple??
ks. feelin abit sianz of watching out for pple liao. later kanna caught. CHOI.
Buaibuais...
星期一, 3月 22, 2004
星期一, 3月 15, 2004
Hi. It's a weekday, office day, n I'm back in office blogging during my precious lunchtime.... Dun worry, I've had my lunch.
Anyways, I'm trying to curb my dependency on others esp. Marc. I do realise the fact tt i'm constantly thinking how others feel about wat i do or say, basically, about me. (though I nvr show it.) Like Marc's case, I'm constantly insecure about how he'll feel about me n wat he doesn't like about me. Would he meet some other gal whom he finds, having all those qualities tt I'm missing, fall in love with tat gal n therefore lived happily ever after (for my case, unhappily ever after...)?? Or would he gradually find me a painful ordeal tt he had to go thru, n then leave for greener pastures??? I mean, ok, I maybe overdoing it a wee bit too much. But, tt's basically how i feel. Uneasy n insecure.
U think I like feelin like tt??!?! Wat? are u crazy??!!
No man. Y would I wan this to happen?? Firstly, it's normally a cause of most breakups, if u have had daily dosages of TV dramas. Untrusting couples making the r/ships unworkable.
No. I wouldn't wan tt. I really do trust him. But the thing is, I just dun trust the Human Nature. It is nvr the case where u had everything properly planned, everything in orderly sequence n all the consequences intended beforehand, which then happens in the way u predicted it. come on, dun kid yrself. no one ever had their lives like tt. unless u can forecast the future. Some how, the human nature will juz take charge in making the human life the way it wans to be. I can't say tt if i continue at this rate with Marcus, n were bound to end up married to one another. wat if........ . . . . . . . . . . . ...
ok. forget it man. this is making my head hurt.
I'll juz make sure tt i stick wif my analogy of self-focusness. the rest i'll leave it to fate.
let me cry or be happy.
watever.
Anyways, I'm trying to curb my dependency on others esp. Marc. I do realise the fact tt i'm constantly thinking how others feel about wat i do or say, basically, about me. (though I nvr show it.) Like Marc's case, I'm constantly insecure about how he'll feel about me n wat he doesn't like about me. Would he meet some other gal whom he finds, having all those qualities tt I'm missing, fall in love with tat gal n therefore lived happily ever after (for my case, unhappily ever after...)?? Or would he gradually find me a painful ordeal tt he had to go thru, n then leave for greener pastures??? I mean, ok, I maybe overdoing it a wee bit too much. But, tt's basically how i feel. Uneasy n insecure.
U think I like feelin like tt??!?! Wat? are u crazy??!!
No man. Y would I wan this to happen?? Firstly, it's normally a cause of most breakups, if u have had daily dosages of TV dramas. Untrusting couples making the r/ships unworkable.
No. I wouldn't wan tt. I really do trust him. But the thing is, I just dun trust the Human Nature. It is nvr the case where u had everything properly planned, everything in orderly sequence n all the consequences intended beforehand, which then happens in the way u predicted it. come on, dun kid yrself. no one ever had their lives like tt. unless u can forecast the future. Some how, the human nature will juz take charge in making the human life the way it wans to be. I can't say tt if i continue at this rate with Marcus, n were bound to end up married to one another. wat if........ . . . . . . . . . . . ...
ok. forget it man. this is making my head hurt.
I'll juz make sure tt i stick wif my analogy of self-focusness. the rest i'll leave it to fate.
let me cry or be happy.
watever.
星期五, 3月 12, 2004
A weird feeling creeps in.
Yeah, n i have not much of an idea Y... i guess it has something to do with Marc boi trying for NTU. Wat? Maybe when he goes back to being a student, n i in the working society would have a clash of opinions. ..... . . . I think I juz hit my nail on the head. OUCH.
Addin oil to fire, would be the work of my mom. she wants me to go try for NTU. . . . . . .... Come on man, how on earth would NTU (or any local universities) accept a poly grad with only a couple of Bs, some Cs, and LOADS of Ds?!?!?!?!?!?????
As much as I wan to get in, I DO KNOW MY LIMITS, MOM.
I know it's worth a try, but, u know, I'm rather embarassed to post this sort of results for admission. Wat if they laugh at me??????
So the moral of the story today is for those pepes out there whose still studying, PLS.
Let me emphasize it again.
PLEASE STUDY HARD AND GET GOOD RESULTS!!!
or u'll really hate to end up like me.
it's very much regretable.
Alright, See ya.
Addin oil to fire, would be the work of my mom. she wants me to go try for NTU. . . . . . .... Come on man, how on earth would NTU (or any local universities) accept a poly grad with only a couple of Bs, some Cs, and LOADS of Ds?!?!?!?!?!?????
As much as I wan to get in, I DO KNOW MY LIMITS, MOM.
I know it's worth a try, but, u know, I'm rather embarassed to post this sort of results for admission. Wat if they laugh at me??????
So the moral of the story today is for those pepes out there whose still studying, PLS.
Let me emphasize it again.
PLEASE STUDY HARD AND GET GOOD RESULTS!!!
or u'll really hate to end up like me.
it's very much regretable.
Alright, See ya.
星期四, 3月 11, 2004
Titled: ANOTHER dilemma.
YES. I KNOW. yet again.
But then, had a long chat with Zhizhong last night and it kinda made me dwell even more on my future.
Where do I see myself heading towards right now?
What do I see myself as, ten years from now??
What do I want to achieve in life eventually???
What kinda life would I want to lead ultimately???
For ZZ's case, he is very much into carving a name for himself in the corporate world, n not merely under someone else's wing/control.
I normally doubt this sort of talk about one's ambitions in being their own boss. I mean, come on, everyone wants to set up their own businesses, be successful n rich. But who or which corporation do u see out there, which started from scratch, is actually tt successful?? yeah, creative technology is one, breadtalk, blah blah blah. But u think everyone who wants to make it out there can all end up doing wat they intended to???? if u think so, u'll damn WRONG man... the world doesn't care if u have a place in the modern society, they dun pity u, or make space for poor old miserable u. What they are waiting to see is how u can create yr own space within the society. If u fail, they'll probably laugh so hard at u and trample yr morale till u wish u weren't born. BUT, if u succeed in creating tt.....
oops. sorry. i was carried away on my lecture on society's brutality... haha.
Anyways, juz to add the fact tt I m still contemplating about my future.
the rest of wat I wanted to say, I forgot. haha. sorry. it happens to me on many occasions.
NVM.
Wish all u pepes happy working/studying/watever.
I'm out.
Ciao.
But then, had a long chat with Zhizhong last night and it kinda made me dwell even more on my future.
Where do I see myself heading towards right now?
What do I see myself as, ten years from now??
What do I want to achieve in life eventually???
What kinda life would I want to lead ultimately???
For ZZ's case, he is very much into carving a name for himself in the corporate world, n not merely under someone else's wing/control.
I normally doubt this sort of talk about one's ambitions in being their own boss. I mean, come on, everyone wants to set up their own businesses, be successful n rich. But who or which corporation do u see out there, which started from scratch, is actually tt successful?? yeah, creative technology is one, breadtalk, blah blah blah. But u think everyone who wants to make it out there can all end up doing wat they intended to???? if u think so, u'll damn WRONG man... the world doesn't care if u have a place in the modern society, they dun pity u, or make space for poor old miserable u. What they are waiting to see is how u can create yr own space within the society. If u fail, they'll probably laugh so hard at u and trample yr morale till u wish u weren't born. BUT, if u succeed in creating tt.....
oops. sorry. i was carried away on my lecture on society's brutality... haha.
Anyways, juz to add the fact tt I m still contemplating about my future.
the rest of wat I wanted to say, I forgot. haha. sorry. it happens to me on many occasions.
NVM.
Wish all u pepes happy working/studying/watever.
I'm out.
Ciao.
星期三, 3月 10, 2004
A month has passed...
Yalo u Pepes...
It's been exactly a month since I went clubbing.... A non-Zouker since then.
But of late, perhaps becoz of the "loneliness" n "high stress-level", I think I'm going for a wkend launch of havoc. HAHA...
kidding man... but it's true tt i feel the club-blood in me again these days. eyeing for the Timo Mass Event at Zouk on 19 March. All u who reads this, pls be considering to join me in the embarkation of this adventure... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....
Feelin the life in me once again, since the whole sorry episode of dilemma from the last blog. GREAT.
So, be sure to leave me a msg if u r joining k?? PLS, inform.
Later.
It's been exactly a month since I went clubbing.... A non-Zouker since then.
But of late, perhaps becoz of the "loneliness" n "high stress-level", I think I'm going for a wkend launch of havoc. HAHA...
kidding man... but it's true tt i feel the club-blood in me again these days. eyeing for the Timo Mass Event at Zouk on 19 March. All u who reads this, pls be considering to join me in the embarkation of this adventure... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....
Feelin the life in me once again, since the whole sorry episode of dilemma from the last blog. GREAT.
So, be sure to leave me a msg if u r joining k?? PLS, inform.
Later.
星期二, 3月 09, 2004
Titled: Dilemma
hey pple.
are u guys thinking of going anywhere in yr career other than staying put in yr current jobs? or have u pple ever tot of tt??
Also in the working society, there is pretty much to consider for example, if u take this job that u dun exactly like, wat happens if a job u wan suddenly looks your way, waiting for u to grab it?? do u really wan to dump the security of yr old job, or would u risk it all to grab that chance, which in the end does not guarantee u for tt dream job u wan??
are u going to study for a degree? or are u contented with juz a diploma??
if u r intending for a degree, in what field are u veering towards??
is it based on wat u are interested in? or is it based on wat the market requires n wan??
Other than these problematic decision-making, there's also questions regarding yr financial status, yr ability, and yr results.
I feel for all the not-so-rich pple in the world cos i M SURE tt these thoughts are not really in the consideration of those who are rich.
i see a few prominent examples like the rich kid who takes some expensive degree cos they are slightly interested in the field, only to drop it after a few months cos they are NO LONGER INTERESTED in finishing their degrees.
For the not-so-rich pple to do the same thing would mean bankruptcy. ok ok... exaggeration on my part. i apologise.
but the truth is, pple of this category would have to think thru for a long while to contemplate all the possible outcomes, go thru many opinions, get as many agreements among family members, then compare the costs, etc.... juz to get to the stage where the person is ready to say: "yes. this is it."
n how long does it take for the rich kid with the silver diapers to get there??
"Daddy, I think I'm interested in drawing."
"oh... tt's wonderful darlin. here's US$50,000. go take watever u r interested in. if the money is not enuf, call me. i'll give it to u tomorrow."
alright alright.... i'm stretching the truth once again. but come on, think of the whole matter once more, see wat are your actual views on these.
Ks. tt's an awful lot of blogging (in my case) esp at work.
GTG.
ciao.
are u guys thinking of going anywhere in yr career other than staying put in yr current jobs? or have u pple ever tot of tt??
Also in the working society, there is pretty much to consider for example, if u take this job that u dun exactly like, wat happens if a job u wan suddenly looks your way, waiting for u to grab it?? do u really wan to dump the security of yr old job, or would u risk it all to grab that chance, which in the end does not guarantee u for tt dream job u wan??
are u going to study for a degree? or are u contented with juz a diploma??
if u r intending for a degree, in what field are u veering towards??
is it based on wat u are interested in? or is it based on wat the market requires n wan??
Other than these problematic decision-making, there's also questions regarding yr financial status, yr ability, and yr results.
I feel for all the not-so-rich pple in the world cos i M SURE tt these thoughts are not really in the consideration of those who are rich.
i see a few prominent examples like the rich kid who takes some expensive degree cos they are slightly interested in the field, only to drop it after a few months cos they are NO LONGER INTERESTED in finishing their degrees.
For the not-so-rich pple to do the same thing would mean bankruptcy. ok ok... exaggeration on my part. i apologise.
but the truth is, pple of this category would have to think thru for a long while to contemplate all the possible outcomes, go thru many opinions, get as many agreements among family members, then compare the costs, etc.... juz to get to the stage where the person is ready to say: "yes. this is it."
n how long does it take for the rich kid with the silver diapers to get there??
"Daddy, I think I'm interested in drawing."
"oh... tt's wonderful darlin. here's US$50,000. go take watever u r interested in. if the money is not enuf, call me. i'll give it to u tomorrow."
alright alright.... i'm stretching the truth once again. but come on, think of the whole matter once more, see wat are your actual views on these.
Ks. tt's an awful lot of blogging (in my case) esp at work.
GTG.
ciao.
星期一, 3月 08, 2004
ARRGGHH!! IS IT TIME TO KNOCK OFF YET??
Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."
What type of eyes do you have?
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dunno wat's wif me n the quizzes.... think i'm too sianz....
You are an angel of the forest. You love to have a
good time and to get in trouble. For you, it's
all fun and games. You like to have friends,
preferably not human, and can converse with all
animals. You love to party, and like to be
alone. You are a deep person, but most people
miss it. Thinking that you are just childish
and young. Which you are not. You are old, and
wise, even if nobody can see it. You know what
the real world is like, better that your peers.
You have a naturally beatiful singing voice,
and are a natural with most instruments.
You can often loose your self. But will always find
yourself again. For that is just who you are.
Be happy. Never change. Because you are beautiful.
What Type Of Angel Have You Become?
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To: My Dear Cousin Ena Tay,
erm....
can i have another template???
sorry for being difficult man... hee.....
but it's not very my cup of TEA.
Thank you hoh...........
can i have another template???
sorry for being difficult man... hee.....
but it's not very my cup of TEA.
Thank you hoh...........
think it's bullshit.
You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.
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星期五, 3月 05, 2004
sorry 'bout tat.
hey man... sorry bout the whining........ i know i know... it lasted a whole blog. but the blog ain't tt long yeah??
Anyways, he's flying off tomorrow. so i'll prob not be doing OT.
but i am tonight. til 7.40pm. cos he won't be dinnering with me...
there's like this super infamous blogger/blog which i think u peeps, guys n gals alike will enjoy reading...
think u guys have heard of it before... frm the Newpaper...
www.xiaxue.blogspot.com
ya, she's quite wild to start with, very blunt, right to the core, doesn't spare a single drop of blood. dun let the sweet appearance bluff u man...
actually, i have had the opportunity to meet with this gutsy lady. we both went for the same interview n we both got the jobs but at different locations...
kks. u guys enjoy yr weekend ok?? while i cry myself to sleep for the sleepless month of March..... . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . .
Anyways, he's flying off tomorrow. so i'll prob not be doing OT.
but i am tonight. til 7.40pm. cos he won't be dinnering with me...
there's like this super infamous blogger/blog which i think u peeps, guys n gals alike will enjoy reading...
think u guys have heard of it before... frm the Newpaper...
www.xiaxue.blogspot.com
ya, she's quite wild to start with, very blunt, right to the core, doesn't spare a single drop of blood. dun let the sweet appearance bluff u man...
actually, i have had the opportunity to meet with this gutsy lady. we both went for the same interview n we both got the jobs but at different locations...
kks. u guys enjoy yr weekend ok?? while i cry myself to sleep for the sleepless month of March..... . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . . .
星期四, 3月 04, 2004
Sad but true.
Wat's sad but true? i'll tell u.
i'm going to have a sad, lonely, long month ahead with this March... Yes. all u pple will see me shrivel up as a sad, fat (yes, i grew plump), ugly (i've got eye bags, pimples, n wrinkles!), lonely, crazy (i'll talk to myself), old girl for the entire mth of March. I'll work myself to death (doing OTs everyday), blinge (gorge myself with food constantly), be dirty n not bathe (Wat?! i'm crazy but i'm not disgusting.), sing myself to sleep (yeah rite, i'll juz snore the next sec i touched the bed. oh wait, i dun snore...), blah blah blah blah blah...
Y u ask. i'll tell u y.
becos my bf is going to be in thailand for the entire mth of March!! tt's Y!!!!
i'm going to have a sad, lonely, long month ahead with this March... Yes. all u pple will see me shrivel up as a sad, fat (yes, i grew plump), ugly (i've got eye bags, pimples, n wrinkles!), lonely, crazy (i'll talk to myself), old girl for the entire mth of March. I'll work myself to death (doing OTs everyday), blinge (gorge myself with food constantly), be dirty n not bathe (Wat?! i'm crazy but i'm not disgusting.), sing myself to sleep (yeah rite, i'll juz snore the next sec i touched the bed. oh wait, i dun snore...), blah blah blah blah blah...
Y u ask. i'll tell u y.
becos my bf is going to be in thailand for the entire mth of March!! tt's Y!!!!
still waitin for my designer...
yeah. the title says it all. i'm still tapping my feet, (im)patiently waiting for my dear cousin to help me in designing a new look for my blog.... it's been a long while.... cobwebs growing everywhere... i'm still waiting.......
星期三, 2月 25, 2004
new updates on my job
Hey peeps, I'm bloggin in the midst of working man... Stress creeps in these days. I've been only working here a week or so, and i can feel the constant push in one's tolerance level of stress n BACKACHES... think i need to do something for my poor back. actually, the stress is still considered bearable compared to the stress level in Nippon Express. See, I still have the leisure time of bloggin in on my updates ( typing super fast, however...) Anyways, juz to mention the fact that my dressing is like how i dress at Nippon express. As lok kok as before...
hey hey... can't really continue bloggin cos i've got TONS OF WORK TO CLEAR...
cIaO.
hey hey... can't really continue bloggin cos i've got TONS OF WORK TO CLEAR...
cIaO.
星期四, 2月 12, 2004
No job updates yet...
Erm... I'm not goin to blog about my job juz yet... cos i haven started working... it's next week.
Anyways, I juz had a gals nite out with my bf's gal fren last nite n it was crazy... she n i will be good clubbing mates i think...
Back to the topic, We went to Zouk at around twelve n had abit of supper before entering. A group of phuture regulars (frens i knew from poly) were there as well. It was kinda packed as we squeezed in, but it then amounted to sardine-styled dancing. I didn't even need to move man... pple move me ard... yeah. tt's how crowded it is...
BTW, there's this INCIDENT which i REALLY have to blog about:
I met this poly classmate, Edwin whom i haven seen in a long while, n he joined us to dance. he's a nice guy n all, it's his fren who's the PERVERT. he seems ok at first but later on, he was running his hands all over every one of our gals there!! TT BASTARD!! I got a few doses of it, YUCK!! Cheryl got kissed by him, n he had the cheek to smile back, when she glared at him. We were all rather tolerant of him for the sake of Edwin(Edwin actually warned him many times), avoiding him at all costs, but he still followed us... TT MORON!!!
The last straw came when he actually squeezed Wendy's butt, n boy was she mad... She pushed him away, n the rest of the gals were like pushing n getting real pissed at him... Edwin finally escorted him away n all was peaceful until cheryl was kinda approached by ah bengs, but i rejected him for her... haha... knight in shining armor...
Kks... Think tt'll be all... I need to rush man... BF's waitin in town for me... BYESS.
Anyways, I juz had a gals nite out with my bf's gal fren last nite n it was crazy... she n i will be good clubbing mates i think...
Back to the topic, We went to Zouk at around twelve n had abit of supper before entering. A group of phuture regulars (frens i knew from poly) were there as well. It was kinda packed as we squeezed in, but it then amounted to sardine-styled dancing. I didn't even need to move man... pple move me ard... yeah. tt's how crowded it is...
BTW, there's this INCIDENT which i REALLY have to blog about:
I met this poly classmate, Edwin whom i haven seen in a long while, n he joined us to dance. he's a nice guy n all, it's his fren who's the PERVERT. he seems ok at first but later on, he was running his hands all over every one of our gals there!! TT BASTARD!! I got a few doses of it, YUCK!! Cheryl got kissed by him, n he had the cheek to smile back, when she glared at him. We were all rather tolerant of him for the sake of Edwin(Edwin actually warned him many times), avoiding him at all costs, but he still followed us... TT MORON!!!
The last straw came when he actually squeezed Wendy's butt, n boy was she mad... She pushed him away, n the rest of the gals were like pushing n getting real pissed at him... Edwin finally escorted him away n all was peaceful until cheryl was kinda approached by ah bengs, but i rejected him for her... haha... knight in shining armor...
Kks... Think tt'll be all... I need to rush man... BF's waitin in town for me... BYESS.
